i dunno y i must felt this way its a long time anyway
y i still dun understand the situation?i just give a little of time to forget everything but give da rest to memorize them..but still asking myself..am i really need dat?im not desparate for love anyway..love keep forcing me doing dat..yeah i know, i realize dat rite now im blaming love fer all of this
y i cant forget him..supposedly i was enjoying mylife now without him but still im not..keep remind myself by saying that he still mine..y?he no longer mine..but y he dun mention things up...make it clear..so, i can giving up easily without regret for twice..seems like he giving me a chance but at da same time he keep silent n turn me down
i dunno wether da chance is to keep my eyes on him or a chance to stay away from him..now still i ask myself..did he still love me?the question lingers around my head..i dunno de answer..but soon i dun hav any idea wether i can get de answer
still i felt dat my status fer him is unknown...its hanging!
did he enjoy when i told him dat i still miss him and said dat i dun give a damn wut he gonna think..my sis thought either even others opinion..while im suffering like hell in here waiting fer his answer..i keep saying dat i dun love him or want him back in my life..actually its all bullshit
honestly..i really do and really want him to do dat again..i dun wanna tink future..but yeah at least im trying looking fer the best fer me..secretly i really want he to treasure my life again dats my hope and my wish..and i keep repeat our song..not in my playlist..but in my mind and my broken heart.i want stand tough in front of everybody even in front of him but too weak at the back..i keep telling people dat i dun care bout him..but every single thing that he do i really give a shit n its important for me in every headline dat he makes even it is not for me..but yeah im too naive n think dat every headline he wrote its for me...well actually it is not for me..i noe dat..but deep inside my heart i still stick with thought that he refer to me.i put such a hope on it.y he dun miss me like i do?he already met his..i dun have any..cz still i dun find one n im not ready fer dat..i dun hav any intention to replacing his place..i wish nobody will n i keep comparing other with him..which is not a good thing.i try to let my tears out i even force them but they refuse..and again i asking my heart when and how this things will end?will i just let it go and find new?not that so easy..or i just keep da promise i made?am i that tough to stay?thats the thing is running in my head..never stop even in sleep
outtie~
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